Friday, August 31, 2007 @ 8:45 AM


i have such a good feeling that i will flunk csa exam tml.

OMG. can someone save me?!?!?!!!!
i just read thru past year paper.. i do not have a single idea abt it. yes. not even MCQ.
someone save me pls!

looks like its no-sleep night for me. :((

God, thank you for drawing me so close to you.
"how i love to sing about you..."

Wednesday, August 29, 2007 @ 8:45 AM


sine POM paper was an easy one and microecons is tml.. i shall upload some photos. :DD

collected my havaianas babies yesterday. pink and green. pretty pretty.

*this pic does not justice to my slippers. they are so much prettier in real life.

anyway, i wore the pink one out just now. and it rained! argh..



fireworks.. (i think this pic looks emo.)


runaway soul


these are marshmellows which i roasted it in the oven as i was craving for melted marshmellows. hahahahs. they obviously expanded into such a yucky state.hahas

sermon on the mount
Tuesday, August 28, 2007 @ 8:45 AM


i cant believe sermon on the mount is gg to end next week. i really love pst. he is such a great and awesome man of God.

on saturday, pst preached abt some stuff, but what got me the most was the last part of the sermon, where pst said, everything is ordered by the Lord. that includes times that we fall and stumble. nothing happens in our life without God's permission. it really encourages me. cos i had quite a bad fall this year/last year. i remember those nights i struggled.. i used to think, "God, if only that thing didnt happened i wouldnt have to struggle now.." but when i heard the sermon, i was so encouraged. it is evident that God used my falling stone as a stepping stone for Him in the kingdom. i got ten thousand steps closer to him after what happened and i am glad. really glad. now, i cant imagine what is life gg to be like at the end of this year. i have two desires i wanna see by the end of this year. i think only kel knows.. teehee.. if both really happens, i would say, 2007 is really the best year in my life. :)) but like what pst always say, its not the end that really matters, its the process. so i must go through the process of moulding and changing. :D

yep. then the sermon on sun, those who know me well.. i guess when pst preached for the first 10 minutes, my name would have appeared right smack at the top of your list. shut up ok. hahhas. when i showed kel the sermon, she was like.. "OMG! ITS YOU!" whatever. hahahas. i have to admit, i am HIGHLY critical. its quite obvious. when i hate or dislike you, you can be sure you will get it BIG time. not into your face of course(still pretty kind in this area. ahahs), but when i fa lao sao............. my close friends will know. hahahs. alright. i will change. judge not, bing.. judge not. unless you have the same standard for yourself.

when i got home, mum was listening to a cd from sot.. on dont know what topic pst was preaching.. i think was on serving God in a ministry.. there are 3 pitfalls in all ministry.. that is the 3 Gs.. girls, glory, gold. if the devil can get a foothold in anyone of it, you will surely stumble. i have seen leaders falling because of them.. its really true. the devil takes no vacation. so every leader should be careful of these.

i needa get back to study.. hahahs. i am happy happy. i bought this bracelet from diva, which i thought its really GORGEOUS. its my fav now. havaianas babies are here in singapore! i just need to go and collect them.

thats all folks. :D

Saturday, August 25, 2007 @ 8:45 AM


ever since my sister knows how to drive, i've been gg out late often. but its damm fun! car rides has NEVER ever been that fun with anyone. hahahas

we went out to kel's place to pick something up on tuesday. we took the lorry out instead of a car, cos firstly, all the cars aint home, secondly, no one dare to let me sister use their cars. hahahas. so no choice. took the bumpy lorry. so it was.. pop by kel's place in a really slow speed. factors that contributed to that slow speed wasnt just the vehicle itself, it was also my sister's driving. hahahahs. so anyway, after kel's, we were too energetic to return home. thus, we came up with a brilliant idea. GO TO THE DRIVE THRU AT EAST COAST PARK. hahahs. but the thing is, we didnt have $$ with us. tried to call people to transfer just another dollar to my sis's acc so that we can withdraw $$, but the world seem to be living in the stone ages, no one has ibanking. so we called friends and all, alas! we decide to pick her friend up at pasir ris then head down to east coast. hahahas. so we went over to her friend's place, my sis asked her friend "wanna change to your car instead?" "cos you might take 10 years just to get back home later!" hahahas. her friend said "no need lah. " he thought that a lorry wont be that slow. hahhahas. so we drove down to east coast. my sis friend was so damm funny.. he keep asking whats the speed now.. can drive faster and all. hahahs. but we cant, cos, if a lorry goes too fast, we will all be bumping up and down! hahahs. i was laughing like mad. seriously.but the funniest part came when reached mac drive thru.as the lane is really small and the lorry is really big, she accidentally drove up the road divider curb!(i dont know whats the correct name.but i am refering to the thing that separates two lanes.) i tell you! i laughed so so so so damm hard. goodness! there were people sitting nearby somemore! they were all like staring. hahahahs. ok. then we wanted to order food.. there this box, which supposedly should have someone sitting inside.. there wasnt anyone.. so we were thinking, how do we go about ordering.. there was this black speaker box outside, so my sister started screaming, "can we order can we order can we order" then we heard a reply that was quite muffled. so my sister said, " can you hear me?? " guess what the person said??!?! pls turn off your engine!!! hahahahahhas. the lorry was making too much noise!!!!! hahahahs. when we got to this part, i was already laughing and crying at the same time! i really laughed so hard till i cried. so damm funny lah!

my sister is such a nutty driver. ahhahas.

Thursday, August 23, 2007 @ 8:45 AM


MY SISTER PASS HER DRIVING TEST!! muhahaha! one more driver in my life! YES!

i tell you.. it is true that it is easier to pass in the morning. so i promise, i will book mine, next year or something, in the morning. yep! cool!

she drove me home yesterday in her friend's car. to tell you the truth, I WAS SO SCARED. yes. super scared. i wore seat belt willingly for the first time in my entire life. yes. she is the ONLY one that ever made me feel scared sitting in a car. hahahahs. damm bad. but aiya, she knows i am just joking lah.

my dad is worst.. he said, " if girl(my sister) is gg to drive us, then i rather take the train down and i meet you all there. " hahahahahas! *faints*

anyway, i think i have sick shopping habits now. i just saw online this pair of shoes i want, cant decide on the color, thus, i am getting both. which is the same for my havaianas.. i got two pairs cos i wanted a green and a pink one.. i need to curb. my mum will kill, my sister my scream if she knows. hahahas.

random post again. oh yes. mugging kills. :)

Tuesday, August 21, 2007 @ 8:45 AM


i am sick AGAIN.

*sulks*

i dont understand why am i always sick when exams are just around the corner. AHH. i hate my body. i hate my body. i hate my body.

and i tell you, the green color powder packet thingy made by panadol company is DISGUSTING! *vomits* i cant stomach more then 2 table spoon of it after dissolving it in water.. i rather eat 10 panadol pills then to finish the whole cup of that drink.

i need healing. i want to eat guylian. i am gg to buy chee cheong fan after this. oh man~~ i am hungry.

anyway, i went to catch fireworks on saturday after service. I HATE THE CROWD. totally! though i wasnt standing at some over crowded place. but i still HATE THE CROWD.(oh yes. i am not those chiong like crazy type of girl.) guys were like smoking behing me, guys that sweat like crazy walked past me and of course, with some skin contact, my arm became wet with their sweat. *vomits* if its not for nelson's and kel's sake, i rather be rotting my ass off at 85 drinking my fav ice lemon tea! i promise to the whole universe that i will never go catch fireworks again unless you get a room at swissotel for the night.


ok.

to self:
-do accounting. and i mean DO. not just flip through the pages and read. its accounting. not english
- microecons. memorize.
-POM. do mind map or whatever thingy u need to do, like jump around the house, study upside down, to get those words into your brain.
-i dont wanna do computer. its boring.


i think my post reads random random random.

i want to blog something about joyce meyer. but this sickness is eating up my brain.

Monday, August 20, 2007 @ 9:53 AM


one afternoon,i am complaining about the confusion of my age, what is expected of me versus what i want for myself.

"have i told you about the tension of opposites?" he says.

the tension of opposites?

"life is s series of pulls back and forth. you want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. something hurts you, yet you know it shouldnt. you take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.

"a tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. and most of us live somewhere in the middle."

sounds like a wrestling match, i say.

" a wrestling match." he laughs. "yes, you could describe life that way."

so which side wins, i ask?

"which side wins?"

he smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.

"love wins. love always wins."

-adapted from tuesdays with morrie

Thursday, August 16, 2007 @ 9:53 AM


my blood is boiling.. argh.. bing, patience patience patience

celebrated my mum's bdae at soup restaurant. awesome like always.
went shopping after that, and my sis gave me the sweetest surprise. hahahas.
my mum and two other sis were shopping in isetan for some stuff which i am not interested in. so i walked away, hoping to find something i like so i can get something too. (yes, i am like that. if my someone get something in my family while we are out shopping, i must die die get something also. spoilt. u may like to say. but thats me.) walked around.. cant find a thing i really like.. but i persisted.. so i walked around again.. and tada.. i saw this billabong water bottle! damm cute and pretty.. told my mum i want to get this.. she said its dumb. cos its just a water bottle. told my second sis, she said its dumb too. said that the money can be spent on other stuff and also, i can just get some other cheap water bottle around.. my eldest sis didnt say anything much. just ask me, "you dont have water bottle??" i was really sad lah.. its like all of them bought something except me.. i was so so dejected when we left isetan..

but guess what! when i came home, she threw me a pack of isetan paper bag. i was like.. "its not mine. i didnt get anything." then she said, "its yours." and i opened it.. ITS THE WATERBOTTLE I WANT!!

*elated*

now.. let me show u how cute the water bottle is..



looks like cheeky monkey huh. hahahs. in case u all forgot how cheeky monkey looks like..



they both are covered with heart shape! yay!

and cheeky monkey looks like me! hahahs



NO! I WAS JUST JOKING. i am way prettier. hahahahahs.

anyway, i am gg to perm my hair soon. so guys, take one last look at my straight hair and say BYE!

P.S do u know i lost weight after my Os last year?? the demin short i was wearing in the first pic.. i couldnt fit into after Os and now, I CAN!!! :DDDDD

Wednesday, August 15, 2007 @ 9:53 AM


was reading my friend's blog... and i came to realise, i havent watched a single sun rise for my whole life.

i swear i will do it by this year. go to bali or something.. i heard that sunrise there is awesome! hahahas

anyway, good news good news!
i scored A for my computer skills application!!! muhahhaha
the whole world should declare a public holiday because of this!!!

for a girl like me, who dont even know how to send a song via msn scored an A for computer skills?!?!??!! miracle!

this is the type of God i serve, a miracle making God.

Monday, August 13, 2007 @ 9:53 AM


something broke within me.
something that was held up within me broke.
but i guess i looked really silly.
i dont do that often. sorry if you guys got a shocked.
those were held up tears that came gushing out after that one last knock on me emotionally.
its all out.

thanks junyu.
that was the exact same thing i said just a few days back. :D

Sunday, August 12, 2007 @ 9:53 AM


took 38 home after simpang with kel and colin. if its not for kelly, i-need-to-reach-home-at-11 campaign, we could have stayed longer. but well...

i was kinda alone on the bus, cos the other two passengers were asleep. it was all peaceful and quiet. sat by the window and stared out into the world.. man.. it was all so melancholic. i wish those type of bus ride would never end..

oh.. i realised how much i have changed.. i use to hate taking bus. when i say hate, i really mean it. i hate it when i have to take a bus home. i hate it bus rides are longer then 30 mins. i hate it so much. but now.. i love bus rides! esp long bus rides. i love taking 23 from my school down to bugis. i love it when i am on the upper deck, sitting by the window while the bus drive down along PIE without stopping.. though i see all the bmw whizzing past, no, i wouldnt want to trade for my seat with them. i find serenity when i take long bus rides but only applicable when it is quiet.

hmm..yes.. you are right.. i need a break. with all the things that are around me.. God, i need a break IN your presence. i need all the keys to my answers. i need that balance between cg, usher, studies, family and my own dreams. why does opportunity cost exist in humanity? why must there be a cost when i choose this over that? i guess.. opportunity cost=sacrifice.

Friday, August 10, 2007 @ 9:53 AM


i miss the fireworks this year. sigh.. the first time i am missing it. kinda sad. i watch fireworks every year since the day i came to earth.

anyway, caught the movie SECRET by jay chou! i tell you! ITS DA BEST! YES!!!! its damm damm damm romantic! if any guy said what he said, i will just melt and die in front of him! i tell you!!!! oh man! the like the part the girl asked him, "why do you use only one hand to play the piano?" the answer he gave.. AWWW~~~~~~~~~ i dun wanna say it. cos i dun wanna spoil the movie for those who havent watch it yet.. but its good! really good! i dun mind watching it again! chris, i am serious. :)
man... i need to wake up from fantasy land.. man~~ i was telling my friends, if a guy did what he did and said what he said, its ok that i forgo the chanel. thats how romantic the show is lah! hahahas.

i seriously dont know what to typed.. nothing much happened lately.. just some little stuff here and there.. which of course thank God!

i needa do some stuff now. then it will be sleeping time! good night all!

just a phrase i came up with using the revelation God gave me,
"to the measure you are willing to serve, thats the measure you love."
-yan bing

muahahha.

Thursday, August 09, 2007 @ 9:53 AM


God,i will be strong. i promise i will.

anyway, i have every reason in the world to be happy today. but i just cant seem to do it. i mean, why shouldnt i be happy when..
-i know i scored 38/45 for my accounting paper which i thought was a confirm failure
-went shopping with my sister after school and bought a top, shoes and skirt
-bernard blessed me with something
-mum gave me more $$ for dinner. (which i dont know why. ahahhahas)
-mum didnt even scream a single word when she saw my increasing hp bill
-my back acc still have 3 digits

so so so so bing, what are u unhappy abt?

Tuesday, August 07, 2007 @ 9:53 AM


3 days of fop, other then tiring, it was AWESOME.
esp the last night. shall not go into details, only kel knows abt it. jealous huh? ahahahs. join usher girl. ahahahahs. yan bing, you are mad.

anyway, woke up early. wanted to pray like usual, but becos SOT gets a day off, my mum and sis is at home. i like to pray only when i am at home alone. lalala. so here i am blogging before i head off to school. exams are coming soon. i gg to start studying from this week onwards. trust me people. i am really gg to start studying.

you know, i have seen so many inspiring people in my life. take for example. delirious? you know how martin smith said, "we were just 5 people performing to a group of 70 kids." when he was singing history maker. i cant remember whether those are the exact words, but those words made an impression in my heart. i mean, i can totally imagine them younger, just starting out, no one really give a damm to their band, some, maybe, even laughing at them, at their dream. but who would have guessed, they became such a well known international band today. and i believe, what gave them the success of today, its not just because they are talented, but more like, their dream included God. i believe they started out simple. just wanting to impact the world and be a history maker for God and his dream. i wonder how do they feel, as they stand on the stage, seeing thousands of people, lifting up their voices and hands singing, "i'm gonna be a history maker in this land. i'm gonna be, a speaker of truth to all mankind" man, i bet it was awesome. its their dream! its their destiny! they've made it!

this led me thinking about myself. what am i really called to do with this life of mine. i am 17. still young in many people's eyes. that is precisely why i wanna give my life to jesus. like what the bible says, the glory of young man is in their strength. me being young, its already an asset. i wanna give this asset to God. be that jewel of christ.

many do not know what does my msn nick jewel of christ means. yes, it has a meaning. i got this when i was thinking, whether should i extend my promise to God since i kinda broke it last year. but i was afraid. i mean, it would be long before i get a boy the next time. i kinda just got those three words while i was praying. jewel of christ. it is because i am so precious, like a piece of jewel, that is why christ keeps me in his arms until the perfect guy that wouldnt hurt me comes along. that is my perception of my promise to him and i am glad i am keeping it.

i totally hate it when people promises God something and breaks it in the end. one time is enough. twice. wanna do it the third time? ok. bing. stop it.

i am gg to school now.

Saturday, August 04, 2007 @ 9:53 AM


i broke my record of not being sick for the whole year yesterday. sigh.. damm sad lah.. was down with slight fever and flu. it felt terrible.

but on a happier note, i got my DONUTS FACTORY and royce chocolates! went out with keith to queue at the outlet at suntec. whoo. its quite fast.. only an hour. its such a relaxing day. after all my presentation and wats not. had subway for lunch! so damm funny. i think i was so funny. we bought the meal and we had 2 cookies. so wat happened was that i broke one of the cookie into two(for fun), of course, one side turns out to be bigger then the other. so i said, "because i love you so much, pal, i give you the bigger side of the cookie." and i was also telling him my(more like my friends) theory of how subway is meant to be consume with buddies and not dates/crushes. we both was having our sandwiches, so after finishing his and i am still left with 1/4 of mine, he looked on the table, saw the mess i have created. the side of the table that belongs to me, was like sprinkled with crumbs that fell from my bread. while his side, was so clean.hahahas. should have taken a photo of it. hahahahs. so he said next time, he will bring all this dates to subway, to see how unglam a girl can get. then i told him, "if my crush does that, i will then act like some typical girl and order.... salad." its so funny. we were just hanging out and all. he was so happy. (cos he went out with me) nah. i am just kidding. anyway, the royce chocolate is so awesome! white chocolate marshmellow! thanks keith!
anyway, welcome to poly life!

fop tonight. i cant wait. so excited. martin smith! but its still God i am more excited about. hahahas. i cant wait for supper after that. tian ji zou?? i dont know. i want tian ji zou.

Thursday, August 02, 2007 @ 9:53 AM


i am breathing through my mouth right now. down with some damm flu. of all days baby. i cant fall sick now.. i still have one more presentation, one Q&A and microecons project to hand in tml. bing bing, hold on!! after tml is freedom!!!

worst thing is.. i cant take medicine. cos i dont wanna risk feeling sleepy. i will need to stay up tonight and wake up early tml.. sigh.. tough life..

i think its tp's air con fault. its SO SO SO COLD!! the air con is on in such a way like as if it is free! goodness i tell you!

ook. shall go and bathe now and refresh myself. then i shall start working on my stuff.. pray for me!